What would you do if you just cant forget everything but yet still want it? I don't know to put this in sentences.. I feel like vomiting every time I wanted to say something..

I hate the cards..
I hate the letters..
I hate the pictures..
I hate her.. for I can't be her.. I can't treat you like she did..
I can't be that girl whose laugh u adore, whose smile u search...
Whose touch you long for..
I hate the fact she was in your life.. She's everywhere you go now..
The rings made me cry..
I don't want you to call me anything you called her..
I don't ever wanna go swimming with you ever again..
I don't wanna go to the beach with you..
I don't wanna go or do things you did with her cause I hate it!

I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!

cause i love him =(