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2011-12-30T01:34:00.000+08:00

Kind of bittersweet to hear from you now
Things have changed so much in both our worlds
Everything about me now is woman
The person that you hurt was just a girl

I’m glad you know that we can't talk in person
I don’t think my man would go for that
With my brand new life, I’m truly happy
But, from time to time, I do think back

-nagged-

Bling Bling

2011-07-22T03:47:00.001+08:00

All tied up.. :)

Alhamdulillah

-nagged-

2011-01-14T03:30:00.001+08:00

1. Not admitting the mistake

You should inform the parties in concern about your mistake. It will reflect badly on you, if someone else discovers it. Worst yet, if someone else tells the parties in concern.

2. Deny that it ever happened (/Cover up the mistake)

You may fear that the response might be loss of status, ridicule, humiliation etc. Yet, even the most cursory study of political and corporate cover-ups in recent years will show, concealment uncovered inevitably does more damage than the original error.

3. Not taking steps to “fix” or alleviate the effects of the mistake

Example,
You accidentally deleted several important records from the database.
When you go to your boss to confess your mistake, have a plan on how you can correct it. Are there backups, what alternative measures can be taken etc

Of course, depending on the extent of the mistake there may be very little you can do to rectify it. Often, showing true remorse with a humble apology goes a long way.

4. Blame factors outside your control

There may be relevant contributory factors such as the long hours you have been working or the fact that you didn’t receive some information you needed, and it may be relevant to mention these, but don’t use them as pillars to hide behind.

5. Attack other people for their mistakes

More common with siblings at young age! Some, never seem to grow out of it!

6. Beating yourself up over the mistake

The fact that you made a mistake does not negate all the accomplishments and successes you have achieved. Don’t drag yourself down by constantly going over and over the mistake. Obsessing can’t undo the mistake or rectify it. Resolve never to make that mistake again and move on.

7. Not learning from the mistake

Carefully evaluate why you made the mistake? What can you learn from it? A mistake has value only if you learn from it.

8. Not taking measures to ensure it doesn’t happen again

What can be done to prevent the mistake from happening again?

it won't and i want you to believe me.. the different between mine and yours is, i can't fix it.. its all been done, and if i keep regretting it, which i did before, there will be no "us". I'm just trying to move on and live my life as normal as i can. but with you mentioning it, over and over again is just bringing me down.

if u can't accept it, leave it.. leave me..

-nagged-

2010-09-09T20:43:00.000+08:00

Hey its Raya again!! SHR everyone.. I know.. I know.. its been awhile since I blogged.

I feel kinda sad though.. I dont know why, but I do..
Maybe because he's not here with me..
Or something else..

I remember Raya used to be so happening and made me happy.. But now, the feeling has gone.. Well, it had been since... a few years back..

But don't let me bump you out.. Have fun on your Raya..

Maaf Zahir dan Batin~
-nagged-

2010-07-31T02:21:00.000+08:00

It's my birthday~ =) choose your gifts wisely... hihi... =p
-nagged-

funny

2010-07-14T14:43:00.001+08:00

Chuck Norris counted to infinity - twice.
-nagged-

2010-06-28T01:02:00.002+08:00

Can you imagine us? =)

-nagged-

2010-06-05T03:53:00.000+08:00

-nagged-

2010-05-21T10:52:00.000+08:00

are designer logos wearable or not?

Logos on more than one item of clothing in your outfit can look very Benidorm. Think fake Louis Vuitton print overdosing on cocaine. Not inspirational:

taken from the website http://www.fashionbeans.com/mens-style/mens-designer-logo-clothing/

I have to agree with this part (well i agree with most of the article written here) that fake LVs are too much nowadays... You can see it everywhere.. Please copy other brands too... =)

-nagged-

2010-04-27T17:24:00.001+08:00

He said, "next 2 weeks my cuzen kawin, and mommy suruh bawa u.." and I just smiled.. Banar kah nda? Buat I nervous ja.. hihihi...

-nagged-

2010-04-19T01:47:00.000+08:00

yea, i'm that lazy to update my blog.. but hey, today's my 8th month anniversary with him.. praying it'll never end... Aamiin~

MyNiceProfile.com

MyNiceProfile.com

-nagged-

2010-03-17T03:43:00.000+08:00

Catch A Falling Star
-nagged-

2010-03-15T18:38:00.002+08:00

ForGoTTeN

-nagged-

2010-03-13T01:39:00.000+08:00

you're still the one..
something real..
those were my stupid, meaningless time..
what i have now should be given an award..
it has crushed the other memories..
cause what i have now, is more than what i had before..

-nagged-

2010-03-10T16:33:00.000+08:00

So yea.. The table keeps turning.. If I'm not the one who's paranoid, then its him.. LoL.. Love does makes a person crazy, and in my case, its both of us.. Still here though, loving him...

-nagged-

2010-02-21T21:07:00.002+08:00

have you ever been in love? i did.. and now i do.. I love him.. And I'm telling it to the whole wide world.. I know I don't have to, but I just have to say it.. Cause things like this, I just can't keep it to myself.. =)

He broke my heart.. He made me cry.. He crushed my dream and buried it in the ground..
But he also the one who glued my heart back, wiped away my tears and worked all through the night just to find that dream of mine and bring it back to life..

I've said it once, and I'd say it again.. He's my life now.. He's my everything.. And though there's been ups and down for us, deep inside me I know he loves me and one day, all that he promised will be done, though it had been broken now.. I'm an optimist.. I see good things in everything that happened.. Well, that's what I think of myself, despite of my paranoia and angst..

Nevertheless, I love my Kasyful Baqi.. And he said something that I'm looking forward to with anticipation.. Pray for our happiness friends..

Hold on to that feeling

2010-02-09T18:46:00.002+08:00

Let's just say it was one hell of a ride and we had fun while it last.. You're free..

Let him fly

2010-02-04T01:49:00.003+08:00

I've put a spell on you.. It's call Loveeeeee

Baby you're my everything.. You're all I ever wanted..

2010-02-01T02:03:00.002+08:00

I keep looking back at the past..
Why can't I just focus on the future?
We're hurting..
But when the storm stops, and the sun is shining again..
We'll appreciate what we have now more than ever..
So keep holding on.. For love needs me and you to grow..

Mom, can I marry him?

2010-01-28T00:34:00.005+08:00

He holds my hand when I need guidance
He wipes my tears when I need to smile
He sings to me when I close my ears
He's everything that's good in me
And I? I'm just lucky I guess.. Cause he believes in me..

--♥Kay'D 110911♥--

2010-01-27T01:03:00.002+08:00

Forgive & Forget

Easier said than done, aint it? Well, it was easy for me a long long time ago.. But this time, I still can't forgive them completely, let alone forget the whole thing.. Which makes my life a disaster.. I don't wanna be like this.. Need a distraction.. Need something.. But what?!!

Been thinking a lot.. Been preparing myself for the worse.. I'm just so sick and tired of being sick and tired..

And my insecurity is waaaaaaayyyyyy up to the sky.. Congrats!

I miss you calling me by that name

2010-01-25T19:20:00.003+08:00

Guess you can't always be there when I need you..

Anyhow, there's a saying that you can only have two real love in your life.. So if the 1st one didn't work out, you'll find another one.. Buttt... what if the 2nd one is a failure too? Will I be alone the rest of my life?

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one, I still got the seed
You said move on, where do I go? I guess second best is all I will know
'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
Oh, I wish that I was looking into your eyes
You're like an Indian summer in the middle of winter
Like a hard candy with a surprise center
How do I get better once I've had the best?
You said there's tons of fish in the water, so the waters I will test
He kissed my lips, I taste your mouth, oh!
He pulled me in, I was disgusted with myself
'Cause when I'm with him I am thinking of you
Thinking of you, what you would do
If you were the one who was spending the night
Oh, I wish that I was looking into
You're the best, and yes, I do regret How I could let myself let you go
Now, now the lesson's learned I touched it, I was burned
Oh, I think you should know!
Oh, won't you walk through? And bust in the door and take me away? Oh, no more mistakes 'Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

That one little bit of my heart, which makes it complete

2010-01-24T19:27:00.005+08:00

What would you do if you just cant forget everything but yet still want it? I don't know to put this in sentences.. I feel like vomiting every time I wanted to say something..

I hate the cards..
I hate the letters..
I hate the pictures..
I hate her.. for I can't be her.. I can't treat you like she did..
I can't be that girl whose laugh u adore, whose smile u search...
Whose touch you long for..
I hate the fact she was in your life.. She's everywhere you go now..
The rings made me cry..
I don't want you to call me anything you called her..
I don't ever wanna go swimming with you ever again..
I don't wanna go to the beach with you..
I don't wanna go or do things you did with her cause I hate it!

I hate it! I hate it! I hate it!

cause i love him =(

2010-01-19T04:19:00.002+08:00

Guys~

Once in awhile, the woman in your life ; mommy, sisters, friends and especially your gf/fiancee/wife would like to hear you compliment her.. Her dress, her hair, her eyes, her smile, etc.. And also, when she said that she ugly, tell her she's not.. She's always be the prettiest girl you've ever seen, (though you've seen better looking girls) Nooo~ they're not fishing for compliments every time they said that, we(us girls, just in case you guys can't process it in your brain through your your thick skulls) DO feel that way.. And they need you to boost their confidence of being with you.. I know this cause I'm just as ugly as the next girl you don't wanna be seen with..

The inner beauty is what's important, but it's hard for people to see cause they're blinded by the outside's appearance..

Lately I've been thinking bout what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way, I gotta stop it babe

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done, I just can't do this anymore
Cause we can't be mended so let's stop pretending now

I wanted you

2010-01-15T09:43:00.002+08:00

--2010--

trying to change myself.. wont take no shit from anyone.. be stronger.. stop playing games.. take more chances.. be more me, not what people wants from me.. save up =)

Maybe..

2010-01-12T09:29:00.004+08:00

sometimes, i wish....

2010-01-11T23:36:00.003+08:00

Actually I've got a lot to say, but I think things will be better if I just bite my tongue and let it fade by itself.... I'm not happy.. Not really..

I don't wanna speak this words cause I don't wanna make things any worse

2010-01-09T01:31:00.002+08:00

My Getaway...

I love you more..

2009-12-22T23:01:00.003+08:00

Time was never on my side before. Fate turned cruel because I loved you more.
I don't understand where we could have gone wrong. She was never meant to be in your arms.
Wait, you said that I should wait for you, like I couldn't stop and see right through.
I'm caught in the middle of bitter and sweet. You were the secret that I couldn't keep.
And I know I'm keeping you alive like the voice inside my head.
And as time moves on, I realize that all I want is to hold on to all of those words that you said.
I'm worn out and I'm wasted and I'm still looking back to where we started but my heart is crying out for the past and I think I can fake it, see you've already faded away....

Every end is the beginning

2009-12-21T23:27:00.038+08:00

Funny~ well if you know the story.... LoL

ze'PLUG-ian bday surprise

the bday man.. kawaiiiii~

How can it be that every time I've lost myself and I've gone out of line, you're there....
And why is it that when I'm such a wreck I look at the life that I want to forget,
you remind me I'm okay... How can you tell when I'm on the edge. My heart's unrefined
and about to give in, you see right through my flaws.... And how do you know, when nothing
is clear, the right things to say so I can heal and face another day... I hope you never go
away....  The first ray of light after the storm, when all my limits return to norm...
So many pieces, now just one... I feel like life has just begun....
You make me feel alive. You make me feel like I have something to believe in.
Something that feels right... When I need a hand, you give me something to believe in...
I'm purified....

you're the secret that i couldn't keep

2009-12-17T15:08:00.000+08:00

Semua terserah padamu
Aku begini adanya
Ku hormati keputusanmu
Apapun yang akan kau katakan

Ketika pertama ku jumpa denganmu
Bukankah pernah ku tanyakan padamu kasih…
Takkan kecewakah kau pada diriku
Takkan menyesalkah kau hidup denganku nanti…

Memang kau bukan yang pertama bagiku
Pernah satu hati mengisi hidupku dulu..
Dan kini semua kau katakan padaku
Jangan ada dusta di antara kita kasih…

Sebelum terlanjur kita jauh melangkah
Kau katakan saja

2009-12-15T11:33:00.006+08:00

Morning: Mommy came to visit...

Mr. F's Birthday Special..

What I find sweet..

Road to aMIRIka..

You know that I love you.. So I love you enough to let you go...

2009-12-05T12:59:00.015+08:00

PARTY IN THE PARK!! ((literally))

Cumul's 29th Birthday Bash

Above: my new habba habba~

im not black.. im just TAN!

from left to right : ((bday woman))cumul, me and shema..

this performance was so cool~

2009-12-04T16:41:00.004+08:00

He's the reason that I smiled.. He's the reason that i cried..
Trying hard to trust him back, but loving him, there's no doubt..
Just wish it hadn't happened and things were like before..
Cause I can't stand this paranoia, and it makes me feel insecure..
Truth is, I haven't forgive him, and I haven't forget it yet..
Now and then, the memories came to haunt me..
Still can feel the pain.. How stupid I felt..
Maybe he just didn't realize how real this pain is, and how aching my heart is, since that day..
And this is something an advanced medicine can't even cure..
But I guess it is true, sometimes we just need to make the mistake to make the realization..

I won't wait forever for you to ask the question

2009-12-03T00:02:00.018+08:00

Ming's 27th Bday.. @JC

agito says:
insya allah our time wil cum
amin love u baby

P/S: I miss my Kasyful..

Is it me in your future?

2009-11-30T01:57:00.003+08:00

My girlfriend just had her first daughter on the 26th Nov09.. Alhamdulillah... I havent had the pleasure of visiting her and her daughter yet.. Sooon~~ And then another good news was given, my other girlfriend, Nameng is pregnant!! woohoo!! Im so happy for them both~ Things are getting better and better and I hope it keeps on that way..

Am I the one in your future

2009-11-25T16:08:00.004+08:00

Baby please, you don't have to explain the reasons
This is me, I know your mind can change like the seasons
Go your way, I know the world is calling your name boy
It's okay, cuz what we got it ain't gonna change boy

As long as we've been together
You've always been the one
Nobody knows you better
When all is said and done

When your friends start to trip
And you're losing your grip
And you cant find your way back home
When your world falls apart
And you're lost in the dark
And you know that your all alone
When you just can't deal, and you need something real
Someone that'll always come through
Who ya gonna run to?

Just need a little bit of convincing

2009-11-23T21:26:00.000+08:00

NABSSSSSSS........... AKU MAU ITTOOOOOOTTTTTT!!!!!

2009-11-23T06:27:00.001+08:00

People make mistakes.. So do I..

And to love you more

2009-11-20T16:36:00.007+08:00

The Mighty Reds..

Hosted the Mini Marathon for Brunei IV zone.. Was tiring but we had fun!

The Day After..

Imagine the tower u built was destroyed, how are you gonna fix or build it back? It will cost u your time, determination, patience and your heart.. But sometimes, people just take u for granted, don't they? All they see is a broken construction, maybe they thought, "hey nothing with a plaster, glue and a lil' bit of colour wont fix" when all we want is it to be almost perfect.. I know perfection is close to impossible but almost perfect, I can do that.. Can't help but comparing what they had done to rebuild the other building, while mine, they just take it lightly..

Yes I might said that it was "worth it" but I'm scared that I might regret it..

I'm not that strong

2009-11-19T18:55:00.000+08:00

Destiny is a bridge that you build to get to the one you love

2009-11-19T00:49:00.002+08:00

He said, "i love you.. i wont do anything to hurt you.." and i believed him..

the funny thing is, after all that had been said and done, i still do..

and I said, " I'm sorry if I love you too much"

2009-11-17T03:34:00.001+08:00

A part of me still believes when you, say you're gonna stick around
A part of me still believes we can, find a way to work it out
But I know that we tried everything we could try so let's just, say goodbye
Forever...

I don't wanna live without...

2009-11-16T14:58:00.004+08:00

How was my day today u asked? It was a hectic day today.. So much to do with so little time... Was about to stay back to finish my work, I wouldn't mind being left alone.. But then I decided not to, in hope when I got back home, I can talk to him or see him.. That would make everything better.. But turns out, he was also busy.. Just need his comfort, but as always, things don't always go as I planned.. Its like a curse to me.. Its ok.. I'll find my comfort, one way or another..

I'm staring out at the sky
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry? What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he? Where is he? Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he? Who is he? Who is gonna take me so high?

I think I'm coming down with a case of you

2009-11-16T00:24:00.004+08:00

If we survive this.. Then we can survive anything.. Just dont wanna feel that way anymore.. It really can kill.. Seriously.. All I want is to wake up everyday without worrying about anything and live my life as happy as possible.. I want him to be happy.. and I want the favor returned too..

you can cater to me baby~ hihi..
the guy with the blue beanie is so hot.. i mean with the voice, and how he played the guitar.. got me sweating here.. LoL.. ya, i have a thing with man, singing and music instruments .. hihi..

To forgive and forget

2009-11-15T18:43:00.006+08:00

At Kerol's wedding..

At JC..

At Work..

Like andeh said, "finally you can breathe in your own room.."

I know right~ pheww... it was a good run indeed.. Going places just to find it.. It was like an addiction.. sigh~ but now, its back.. Thank god! hihi..

Yours to hold

2009-11-13T22:41:00.003+08:00

EP EP EP!!

The car is out and about.. Had a glance of it, a ride in it and fell in love with the owner.. damn~ Can I say "hhoooootttt!!" i heart u driver...

On a not-at-all-relevant note.. I love this guy!! He's a jerk, but he's my jerk..

A new beginning

2009-11-11T20:29:00.010+08:00

Guess we're stuck with each other

2009-11-10T20:28:00.002+08:00

All that I thought was right, was wrong.. That's all that matters.. I loveD you..

What it is to burn

2009-11-03T15:36:00.010+08:00

The latest social event I went to.. GB Azlan's Farewell Function...

The new GB and the old GB..

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Looks like I’ve made a mess again Trying to clean my act, turns out it was a mistake Friends said I’ve changed but I keep denying it Used to be like that, but now I’m like this Controlled, tamed, a good girl I am And every action has its risk Another me, another you We all have our own histories Our own stories to tell But secret and silence are sometimes the best options It’s not a lie, it’s just to keep the people you love happy Don’t you think?
Been a shitty week.. Done things I shouldn’t be doing.. Said things I shouldn’t be saying.. When I hurt other people, I hurt myself.. I envy the happy people.. I really do.. But don’t mind me, keep doing what you’re doing.. Let me just be.. I brought this on myself..

Waridi.. Aku rindu ko.. =( U introduced me this song.. and I'm loving it now...

Terlambatku menyusuri jalan ini..
Tersesat di saat kau menjauh..
Terlambatku mengartikan cintamu..
Kusadari setelah kau pergi
Berat hati menerima kehilanganmu..
Tegarkan aku saat kau memilih dirinya

REFF :
Pergi cinta lupakanlah aku cinta..
Ku relakan akan dia..ada dipelukmu..
Pergi cinta..hapus bayanganku..cinta..
bahagiakan dia..cinta..
Sampai akhir waktu...
Engkau bersamanya..

terlambatku memenangkan hatimu..
setelah kau menyerah padaku..
ku tak tau sampai kini kau berlalu..
tersadari dirimu selalu di hatiku..

berat hati menerima kekalahanku..
tegarkan aku kini kau menjadi miliknya..

I can’t promise ‘forever’, but I’m working on it

2009-10-28T14:19:00.005+08:00

I don't need me a basketball player
All I need is somebody that's down for me
And he don't have to have money
His love is just like honey
It's so sweet to me

He can have everythin' in this world
But he'll sacrifice it all for me
And I made up my mind
I'm in love this time
And it feels so real

And I know that he won't break my heart
And I know that we won't ever part
It's time, time for us to settle down
And I wanna be with him forever

They can't say that I am crazy
For makin' him my baby
Bought his flowers for me
See I've done been through many changes
But this one I ain't changin'
This one's staying the same

I can have everythin' in this world
But I'll sacrifice it all for him
And I made up my mind
I'm in love this time
And it feels so real

And I know that he won't break my heart
And I know that we won't ever part
And it's time, time for us to settle down
And I wanna be with him forever

I Love you
And all of the things that you do
Oh baby please, I need you
So believe me, I do
'Cause I love you
And every little thing baby, you do
They don't know how I feel
'Cause I know this is real

And I know that he won't break my heart
And I know that we won't ever part
And it's time, time for us to settle down
And I wanna be with him forever

I think Im losing again

2009-10-25T00:36:00.002+08:00

Mood swings everywhere, everytime.. Daymm~ Can anyone seriously cope with my mood swings? Can he? Really? I don't know.. Let's just wait and see if he really meant what he said.. At the mean time, I am trying to change back to what I used to be.. But I guess age does change people.. But I will try.. Cause I promised myself to be the best for him.. Can I? I know I can.. But it'll need time.. I need time.. And time is running out so I have to be fast.. Or I'll lose something precious that I've been looking for all this time.. I'm rambling, aren't I? LoL..

Beyond my control

2009-10-23T09:47:00.002+08:00

I slept at 4am last night and woke up at 7 this morning.. What's happening to me? This was not the plan.. The plan was sleep late, wake up late.. Its FRIDAY! Its my day off.. It should've been.. wake up at 11, take a shower, get dress, then off to Qlap for lunch with the girls.. But no~ I had to wake up at 7 instead.. Sigh~ But I guess it's all good.. At least I get to renew my driving license early in the morning, when there's not so many people at the post office.. *Thumbs up*

Anyway, I was driving home just now and the song "Hanya Ingin Kau Tahu" was playing on my radio.. Instantly I smiled and flashbacks came to sight.. I have this friend of mine.. I can say that most of our time spent was driving around, with no destination aimed, and just talk, sing our hearts out, and everytime the song I mentioned above was playing, we'll sigh at the very first tone of the song ( the piano ) and sang as loud as we could in the car.. Sometimes, we even repeat the song and sighed for another round.. Hihi.. That memories just made me smile..

But what made me smiled even more this morning was the sound of his voice.. Kay's voice.. God, I love that man so much.. His 'just-woke-up' voice always sound so sexeeehhh.. hihi..

How can I tell this story....

2009-10-21T20:15:00.002+08:00

ATTENTION!!!

ya, "attention".. its what all people wants.. don't try to deny it.. we all need attentions..

when we can't get it from one place, we always look for it at another one.. why? beats me..

there's always a time when we really need it.. so we try to look for it from our friends, family and especially from our other half.. but sometimes, our other half just can't give it to us and that's when we decided to look for it from other people, a person who care enough to give a shit about us.. its harmful... its just a friendly attention we want.. though we can take care of ourselves, we do like it when others care for us too, right~?

call me an attention seeker, but i do love it.. with just a smile on my face.. =)

Thank you for being there

2009-10-21T18:16:00.001+08:00

Sungkai BBQ at Gash's

My other half with my oneth quarter..

Kesian usulnya babyku ah.. hihi..

He said : "he loves u because you’re cute, adorable, makes him happy. You fill him with your love, your care.. And a lot more.. I know, coz I’m a fortune teller."

More like a “setau gaban”? hihi.. Hugs..

2009-10-21T12:54:00.006+08:00

And then, boredom came to sight.. And I did this video.. It sucks.. Oh well~

WARNING!! PDA ALERT!!! hihi..

Its true what they say.. Nothing feels nice than being in love..

2009-10-20T06:23:00.002+08:00

There are a variety of proverbs almost all English speakers are familiar with. We regard these words of wisdom with reverence, but some of these sayings look specious when weighed against each other. My solution? "Moderation in all things." For example:

Actions speak louder than words <--- > The pen is mightier than the swords
Knowledge is power <--- > Ignorance is bliss
Clothes make the man < --- > Don't judge the book by its cover

See what I mean??!!

Its like, I'm overdosed from YOU.. In a good way

2009-10-19T00:00:00.004+08:00

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A stranger you were once.
Then, with a gentle look you took my hand.
As our lives engaged,
you lit my life and I held both your hands.

That's why I love you..

2009-10-18T17:51:00.001+08:00

Words can't fix a broken vase.. Let alone a broken heart..